Making Peace….

Anuj’s Way

I was the biggest moron on earth. First I was begging her to meet me once and now when she was ready to meet me I just chickened out. I did not know what to do. I wanted to meet her but I was not sure it was the right thing to do. I really liked Sita a lot but was I still in love with her was something I was not sure of. She was a very good friend and I really cared for her and I did not want to hurt her considering the fact that now we were really close. I was scared if she fell in love with me it would be very difficult to back off. But why did I want to back off? I did not know. I didn’t feel the same way for her as I used to earlier. I switched off my cell and sat in my flat all alone pondering and trying to make up my mind on what needs to be done. At around 9 pm I called her and she cut the call. I tried again but in vain. I left a message but she did not reply back. I tried calling her again but she had switched off her cell. I couldn’t sleep that night and cursed myself for behaving in this manner. I tried calling her in the morning but she was in no mood to talk to me. I kept on calling her and leaving messages but she did not respond to any of them. Finally I decided to pay for my fault. 4 days after that weekend I reached Sita’s office at 6 pm. I knew she always left at this time and I waited at the gate of CTS.

Sita’s View

 It had been 4 days since I talked to Anuj. I could not understand what made me so angry. It was a petty matter that could be resolved by mere conversation but I was not ready for that conversation. I felt cheated and abandoned. I could not concentrate on my work and was always grumpy. I had lost sleep and my smile as well. My colleagues kept on asking me what the matter was. The truth was that even I did not know the reason for my behavior. I came out of office that evening with a terrible headache. I stepped outside the main gate to get a rickshaw and there across the street stood Anuj. I could not believe my eyes. It was a complete surprise for me. He crossed the street and stood right in front of me. “Hi Sita”, he said extending his hand towards me. God knows what happened and I just smiled back shaking his hand. All my anger seemed to have just vanished into thin air. “I am really sorry for that day yaar… I didn’t mean to hurt you. I know you are angry with me but just forgive me once. This one last time and I promise I will never again disappoint you”. “But why didn’t you turn up that day?”, I asked. “Can we discuss this over a cup of coffee please?” he asked and I replied affirmatively. I called up Nalini aunty telling her that I’ve got some important work in office so would be late. We went to CCD and had a heart to heart talk regarding this. He told me that he was so stuck with work that he didn’t get time for anything. He apologized many times for his behavior and finally I forgave him. So now we were talking normally without any malice towards each other. So that was the first time me and Anuj were face to face talking after almost 5 years since our first meeting at Sri Krishna temple. It was then that I observed him properly. He had put on a little weight and looked chubby now. His chin dimple looked prettier and his mischievous smile just made him look adorable. Was I turned on? Gosh no!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah may be a little but I sure was not in love was the bottom line.